Tuesday, October 6, 2009

As I've gotten older I have had the "I don't want to grow up" attitude. Due to unfortunate circumstances in my childhood, I have had to grow up quickly with more responsibility put on me earlier than it should have been. Needless to say my happiness as a child was strained at times.
Because of this I have found the easiest way to handle conflict was to accept it whether I agreed or not, or to run away from it when it got to be too hard to bear. I still occasionally do that today as an adult. Fortunately for me, God loves me enough to change that. He has brought me to a place that is not so easy to run from. He tells me to stay where I am no matter how difficult it might be for me.
He is closer to me now than He has ever been before. Although it seems really hard at times, I know this is where I need to be. Do I still refuse to grow up? Yes. But maturing in my walk with with Christ and being obedient to Him, now that's a definate possibility.

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